Lately things are just iffy with me. I’ve been getting iffy vibes from everyone and I feel as if i’m getting pushed to be even more independent. A lot of things have happened at home to an extent where it’s affecting myself. I’m disappointed on how things turned out.. I’m just worried about what’s next for me so much i’ve started to lose track on having company sometimes. Being independent sometimes can be lonely and it makes me sad in a way because there’s not a lot of socialization in my life besides when I go to dance. When I work i’m telling people what to do so there’s rarely any talking. My family is always busy doing their own thing so It’s also rare I talk to them. I guess i’m lacking the communication I need from certain people and I’m starting to drop the friendships like dead birds from the sky. I don’t really vent to anyone anymore. I keep things to myself even if someone asks. There’s just no point at the moment to share the weakness I have or even the pain i’m feeling. I’m just staying positive as much as I can right now to… be happy. I am happy to an extent though. Just to an extent….